Tuesday 21 June 2011

Sunday 19 June 2011

Exams

It's exam week, and even thought I know I should eat before an exam, I'm probably not going to.
On Friday I didn't eat. Then on Saturday, mum bought a huge fucking bag of maltesers, and I fucking ate them, with her sitting next to me. It was humiliating. I had a shower and vomited it all back up. I'm such a disgusting pig. and then Today, Sunday, I haven't eaten again, I was out all day so I had an iced tea (136 cals) because I was having trouble focusing my eyes, also I got a ticket to an anime convention, which I'm really excited about, but my best friend is pissed at me for going without her, which is so stupid and childish. I'm not gonna waste all that money because she can't go, that's fucking ridiculous. I'm really excited about it, to the point I don't even care if everyone whos meant to go with me bails out, I'm still going.

Wednesday 8 June 2011

don't eat, you fat fucking piece of shit. Your fucking Pathetic.

Monday 6 June 2011

I haven't been blogging much, which is probably why things aren't going well. I tried to stop myself from restricting, and starving, and purging,  and it was okay for a week or two, I'd only eat one meal in the evening, and then I'd vomit down the shower drain. Yesterday I didn't eat, and I felt so much better, and I'm probably going to stop eating for the rest of the week. Mum made pie for tea though, if I said no, she'd be suspicious, so I ate half then went and purged. If you can imagine what diet Lemonade, Stomach Acid and Beef pie taste like, thats it all molded together. Disgusting right. I'll probably eat a meal every 2nd day, and Purge it, and just, go less and less, keep myself happy. Life is too short to worry about all these problems, I'm just going to do what makes me feel good, and leave it at that.